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Last day at work tomorrow before I get a nice break of a week and two days. I've been looking forward to it and it's going to be a good time to relax and take stock. Work is always a very dynamic environment. If you want to move ahead, you're encouraged but you always have to be looking at how to do that. So you watch the politics and work incredibly hard. It's amazing how political things get in higher management. I'm not too bad at 'Playing the Game'. Not actively, but knowing which way the wind is blowing. But for the last twelve months I've tired of that. It's time for a real solid life outside of work and the idea of starting a family is growing on me. Work can no longer be the priority it was.

There's always change in any organisation, and we've gone through another significant org change. No roles have changed yet, and for our little group I don't see that happening (we're too swamped). But it means things have to be watched carefully.

I saw an old work colleague move to another company recently. One I'd consider quite an exciting move to say the least. That also got me thinking and there was a little itch in my feet. You see, for me it's never just been about the pay-check. It's about the organisation and the task at hand. Work somewhere great and enjoy the task and work doesn't seem like work.

I'm not sure I'm enjoying my particular task right now. My priorities are changing personally and there seems to be exciting things elsewhere.

That's great, but again, my personal priorities are changing. So I'm a little stuck with thinking about what to do. Which is irritating me a little. Do you sit still? Get comfortable? Survive? Or look elsewhere?

Bah.

Sitting still never feels good to me. But jumping elsewhere to do something exciting? Sort of clashes with concentrating on a family. I've left it this late to have children because I wanted to really focus on them. I didn't want to be like the numerous guys I've seen who probably never saw their kids for the first few years of their life. I focused so I could provide for them in a decent way, but it wouldn't detract from the time I would have with them.

Decisions, decisions, decisions.

Bah.

Sometimes writing things out helps me come to conclusions. Not right now though. I can do certain preparations without having to make a high impact choice. But hopefully my mind will settle on what needs to be done soon.